Always Waiting

So, as usual, I find myself waiting for some things to happen. And this is the clear difference between self publishing and working with a publisher -- even an indie publisher. A lot of things are out of my control. That could actually be a good thing. I benefit from the wisdom of those who produce books for a living (rather than from my own experience of having read a hell of a lot about it and actually done it once). But as a person who has, on occasion, been described as a control freak, this is hard. I wait for edits to be requested, I wait for feedback on revisions. I wait for the day the cover is revealed to the world, I wait for the book to hit Goodreads so I can start actually promoting it (no, not yet.) And in the midst of feeling like something so important to me is so far out of my control, I realized something: It doesn't help to worry about this. Instead, it's time to focus on the things that I CAN control. (Yeah, I'm forty, and I have learned this lesson HOW Many times??? Shut up.) And those things include: trying to be a nice person so my whole family doesn't hate me. (when I'm stressed about things that are out of my control, I have a habit of being just the teensiest bit tough to live with. Ahem.); WRITING -- it's easy to get wrapped up in focusing on the thing that is almost done, instead of on the thing that I'm meant to do. And I've got lots of half-done and in-progress things to keep me busy.

I'll be honest here, too... the contract aspect of publishing is stressful. There's been a lot of back and forth on that, and we're still agreeing and disagreeing on things, though it will work out fine. But until the thing is signed, I don't know exactly what limits may or may not be placed on the other things I'm working on and where they might be able to go. But again - out of my control to some degree. I have to trust the agent to listen to my concerns and work with the publisher for the best deal.

And in the meantime, I feel like Through a Dusty Window is just kind of hanging out there... there's a blog tour for that book coming up in a couple weeks, so it's time to focus on that again for a while. So that's what I'll be up to this week. What are you doing?